Cursed Yoshi
Chapter 103 = Everything
Disclaimer: All characters here are of my own
invention, but the original idea of Yoshies, Birdos,
etcetera, are copyright of Nintendo, and I make no money from writing this.
35th of Eira, CD 2156; Location Uncertain
While Darkmark had bedded
down just inside the forest under the shade of some great trees, he awoke to
find himself in a somewhat familiar location – in the Psion’s temple in the Kaftata mountains. Getting to his
feet, he looked around, and remembering his last visit, withdrew the orange gem
from his saddlebags, looking to the altar.
“Ah, you’re awake…” a voice
in his head told him. “You notice I took the liberty of speeding up your
journey… this is as far as I could take you. You will have to use the gemstone
again to see me.”
Why didn’t you do
this sooner?
“I have my reasons, and
limits to my strength from down here. Your night with that feral was probably
educational to you.”
Darkmark clenched the fist
not holding the gem. You watched that?
“Not just me, so did every
feral who walked past that open tent flap, but you didn’t notice or mind them.”
Defeated, and somewhat
ashamed, the brown Yoshi decided not to pursue the matter further. Hesitating, Darkmark
eventually followed Karlo-Shin’s command and stepped
up to the altar, the top already a swirling sapphire colour. The moment he
placed his hand upon it, he felt himself pulled into the altar, and plunged
downwards until there was a bright flash and he found himself standing with Karlo-Shin… and only Karlo-Shin.
The rest of the vast structure he had met the other Dark Gods in was empty of
people.
The black Yoshi had done away
with his cloak, carrying a sword by his side that Darkmark recognized as the
one his other self had dropped at the end of their duel earlier in the month. Darkmark had forgotten all about that. What had happened a result of that conflict? What fate might he have
condemned another copy of himself to in order for his race to be saved?
Karlo-Shin extended his
other hand as Darkmark put the orange gem away, and the brown Yoshi put his
hand in Karlo-Shin’s, unsure of what to expect.
Suddenly he felt himself
pulled in a direction he had never imagined could exist, and when his vision
ceased to be whited out and came back into focus, he
was still holding Karlo-Shin’s hand, but the two of
them were translucent, and they were back on the surface, but nowhere Darkmark
had ever seen, atop a small rock overhang that looked over a large plain. There
was no sign of civilization anywhere in sight.
“I brought you – well, your
consciousness – here to talk to you without anyone else hearing.” Karlo-Shin explained, gazing at the creatures ambling
around that Darkmark had no knowledge of, most of them feeding from the grass.
“I needed to wait for an opportune time. Klashkna is
amusing himself with the war that has erupted…”
He paused a moment, then
continued without turning to Darkmark. “As you know, the Inhabited Lands
comprise only a very small portion of Chyrus… the vast majority of the planet
is uninhabited by sentient beings, and instead is populated by creatures often
told of in legend like dragons, as well as creatures that never made it into
the Lands.”
“Eirsir
created the Lands to give his creations some protection from the fierce beasts
across Chyrus… as he told you, they evolved on their own, adapting to their
environment and improving on a God’s designs… and the Yoshies were an
experiment to see if his form would do the same.”
“…and?” Darkmark asked,
feeling prompted when Karlo-Shin stopped speaking for
a moment.
“He did not tell you that
part, but it is plain to know. Even if you do not take all of the different
sub-races into account, each adapted by Eirsir to a
particular environment, yet all sharing certain characteristics… if you only
consider the City Yoshies for a moment, it is known that they have changed…
their language has changed, their society has changed, their minds and
mentalities have changed, even if their bodies have remained the same.”
“I don’t understand. What are
you trying to tell me?”
The scene shifted suddenly to
somewhere else in Chyrus in the inhabited lands, some city with Yoshies milling
around, doing their daily tasks. Karlo-Shin waved a
hand in their direction, the two of them hovering a little over a rooftop,
though Darkmark knew they were not really in that location. Just his
consciousness, or whatever Karlo-Shin had brought
here.
“All of these people are made
in the image of a God. And yet, they have changed. Quite a
lot. Other designs…” Karlo-Shin muttered,
waving to a small Yoshian child playing with a pet of some kind, “…have changed
much more, even on the physical level. Yet, there is a pattern.”
“You see… what are all these
creatures doing? They improve themselves. If they cannot do it physically, they
do it mentally, or spiritually; they gain knowledge and they understand more.
Why do they do it? Primarily to survive. Those adapted
to an environment have a better chance of surviving in it, and the intelligent
can manipulate situations to their needs. Do you see it yet?”
“…no, I don’t-”
“Fret not, it took me
hundreds of years to see it… consider though, how long this has been going on,
and how long it can continue to go on. This technology we have now is
considered wonderful, and yet the day will come when it is considered
primitive; the day will come when that technology is deemed outdated. It is an endless cycle of
self-improvement. One day, we will even leave our home planet. Chyrus will be but one of many worlds we live upon.”
“Were we meant to do that? To eventually-”
Karlo-Shin cut him off.
“You are making the assumption… that we were ever given a purpose in the first
place.”
Darkmark remained silent, and
Karlo-Shin continued to speak. “There is no reason to
expect that we were given any purpose or reason to exist, that we have to be
here for a particular design or purpose. It is just self-centric thinking, that
life has any purpose at all…”
“…then why live?”
“The very question many would
ask. And I reply; why not? We may continue to live, to succeed for generations,
centuries to come, our descendants carrying on long after we have given up our
last breath. You might ask why, if there is no purpose; I ask why not, for the
same reason. Many things are infinite, and we do not just give up; I have
studied for hundreds of years the way things work and I have still barely
scratched the surface, but I continue regardless. I know I will continue
forever, or until my consciousness fades and my spirit passes on, and I
continue anyway… why? Simply because it is the only true path –
self-improvement is a path we all take in life, but also in death. Our spirits
persist after death and we still continue to learn; either from observing those
still living, from returning to live again, or taking the role of a creator for
ourselves…”
“What, you are saying
everything is meaningless?”
“Meaning is abstract…” Karlo-Shin replied. “It is what you make it to be. It can
have meaning or it cannot, and it is only your perspective, either way. No, I
am saying that me…” he placed a hand on his chest, “…you…”,
pointing to Darkmark, and then gesturing to the Yoshies below, “…and everyone
here… and all the others… everyone is a God.”
Darkmark tried to speak, but
his words were a jumbled mess. “Wh-what… you mean…
I…”
“Think about it… Eirsir has made mistakes, he has his flaws… and we improve
ourselves, we gain knowledge… Eirsir even shares it
on occasion… if we were to continue this, what would really separate us? What
would keep us apart? Why would we not be his equals?”
“Because I… we… it’s not… I…”
“It is plain to see… if even
the Gods are not perfect… then we can become their equals, or better them… it
might take eons, but once you see that Gods are not perfect, it becomes clear,
neither are we, but we can improve ourselves, as can they. Forget Octotheism… this is Omnitheism.”
“So… what, do…” Darkmark took
a moment to compose himself. “Do we… eventually become
perfect?”
Karlo-Shin turned his
gaze to Darkmark. “What is perfect?”
When Darkmark didn’t answer, Karlo-Shin continued. “A perfect creature wouldn’t need to
eat, would it? Nor would it drink. These dependencies are weaknesses, and a
perfect creature has none by definition of being truly perfect. What else? It
would be fast, amazingly fast, able to go from one place to another in an
instant. It would be able to survive any situation, and it would know all
things.” He turned fully facing Darkmark, speaking slowly and deliberately. “It
would not need to sleep, to breathe, to reproduce… it would never die, and
never be born… in fact, a perfect thing would never have even come into
existence in the first place. It would not have needed to. A perfect thing
would not even be material, since material objects are subject to damage and
possess flaws, no matter how well-made they are. Perfection, then, true perfection, cannot
be seen, held, detected, or represented in any way except in terms of itself.”
“Then…”
“We cannot become perfect,” Karlo-Shin said, “because perfection is impossible. There
is no such thing; it is just an abstract concept. Perfection itself… is
non-existence, for simply existing is an imperfection.”
Darkmark forced himself to
break his gaze with the black Yoshi, but he could feel those red eyes staring
at him nonetheless.
“Do you understand now,
Darkmark, what Eirsir is doing?”
“I… I…”
“He is learning, just like
you or I. He created us, he made Chyrus, as an
experiment.”
“Stop…” Darkmark pleaded.
“Eirsir
has the same flaws as you or I. He may not have any of the bodily needs or
desires that we mortals do, but in the mind he is one of us. All that separates
us from him is knowledge. He used that knowledge to be able to weave the
energies of our universe to create us, and that is all… God, the Gods, Eirsir, all of them… at heart, they are ordinary people.
Most of them were mortals who ascended upon death. And when Eirsir
came to a mortal form and mated to produce Sévar, he
realized this too. He has an affection for his creations, he loves them… these
are emotions, things that people feel! Ordinary people! He cares for us and he
wants to help his creations… but with his sword shattered, he cannot. And that
means it is up to us, up to the Dark Gods, to become the new Gods, to watch
Chyrus and protect it, until the sword is reforged.”
“But I heard the stories, Klashkna-”
Karlo-Shin stepped
closer, dropping the volume of his voice conspiratorially. “-is different. I
became his subordinate when I thought he was freeing us from human rule, but
no, he is something else… when the time comes, Darkmark, we will abandon him
and leave him to the judgement of Eirsir and the
others. That is why we are speaking here. Eirsir
believes you will fulfil the prophecy… Klashkna
believes you will help him defeat Eirsir. They both
think you will be their champion, and so you were made
the Fabled One… everything is held in a balance, and only you can tip it one
way or the other. And yet, most likely, neither will happen.”
“W-Why are you telling me
this? Did I have to know all this?” Darkmark demanded, trying to keep his
breathing under control, his pulse racing, the people
below them continuing on their daily business without hearing either of the two
Yoshies above them, as though they were not there. Probably, they weren’t.
“Why you? I feel that,
while you have much to learn, you might make a fine student… and why am I telling
you? Because one armed with knowledge can penetrate fortresses built of
ignorance even within his own mind… I want you to
remember, as you go back… Saviour, Dark God, Fabled One, these are all but
titles… your actions are what will determine who you are, not your titles.
Though our voice may one day fade and our bodies long be dust, we must do what
we can to ensure our kind survives, even without a driving purpose, for there
is no other path to take.”
“…and the humans? Do they fit into
all of this? Are they Gods as well?”
“Of course.” Karlo-Shin replied flatly. “They have the potential, at
least, but it is up to them if they are to realize it or not. The Koopas, too, and the other races and even the non-sentient
creatures, if they are able to learn enough through their lives… while all have
potential, not all will take it… but you cannot judge a person on their race,
their name, title, or any of this… you will not be leading the Yoshies to win a
racial war. You can only judge a person on their actions; without letting
perspectives cloud your vision, let the truth guide you… good, bad, light,
dark, right, wrong, these are all perspectives… judge by actions alone.”
“Their actions are destroying
us. They are starting wars and killing inno-…”
“Innocence is a perception.”
“...killing people
only for their self-centered goals.”
“Then remember that as you
fight… that is why we must fight… not for freedom or liberty, for the Gods or
the Saviours, but to stop the actions of the humans. To protect that which they would destroy. Keep that in mind
when you fight, and you will see what your actions must be, so much clearer than they were before.”
To stop their actions… Darkmark mused,
collecting his thoughts from the shattered mess Karlo-Shin
had left them in.
But… their actions are not the actions of the
people… they are actions directed by the leaders and rulers, not the common
people… of course. The people never start wars. The leaders always do… so… must
I stop the leader…?
I can see how to end this war… the ruler of the
humans must be assassinated. And because I hold this
knowledge… I have to be the one to do it.
So… this is my destiny, as a Saviour.
“…I… I understand.” Darkmark
said quietly. When Karlo-Shin did not reply, Darkmark
made an inquiry. “May I ask a question?”
“You may.”
“Do you… did you ever feel
love?”
The question brought a small
smirk to the lips of the master psion. “I was raised
as an assassin. You know from your travels with one that they routinely kill
their emotions.”
“…I see.”
“But,” Karlo-Shin
continued, “It has been many hundreds of years since then. Now…
I simply have greater goals. Not to mention that I am imprisoned here.”
“So you’ve never felt the
loss…”
“I am sorry for what has
happened to you.” Karlo-Shin said, though his flat
tone of voice made it hard for Darkmark to tell if he was sincere. “Your recent
travels have been pursuing that legend…”
“…it doesn’t exist, does it. The Marble Altar.”
“It exists.” Karlo-Shin said. “And its location is written on an item in
your possession.”
“Wh… what?!” came Darkmark’s
outburst, plunging his hand into his saddlebags. There were coins, supplies,
small items, scraps of Vaell… Pulling out a wad of Vaell scraps, one of them caught his eye. Written in
ancient Yoshian, carefully inscribed in his own writing, was the message he had
found on the walls of a cave in the
His suspicions were confirmed
when Karlo-Shin snatched the scrap from Darkmark’s hand. “The Altar is linked to Chaos, as you
know. Therefore, some very… chaotic things have been known to happen,
particularly when it moves. Can you think-”
“That eruption.” Darkmark
muttered. “I vaguely remember, close to when I first came here… there was an
eruption in the mountains.”
“The result of the
altar moving. These symbols,” he said, waving the parchment, “are a sort
of precursory warning that the altar was about to appear. You would have found
this set of symbols all over those caves if you had explored deeper, most likely.”
“Then… then I know where it
is.”
“But can you use it?”
Darkmark paused. “There’s
something I don’t know, isn’t there…”
“You may miss your loved
ones, those who were taken away. And they in all likelihood miss you. But that
is not enough to undo the unavoidable certainty of death…”
“I don’t care.” Darkmark
spat, trying to keep his emotions under control. “If there is some test, I will
take it, if there is some trial, I will endure it… I want to see them again…
even if bringing them back is impossible, I… I just…”
Sighing and dipping his head,
Darkmark’s voice fell to a whisper. “I want to say
goodbye… to those I never had the chance to see off…”
“Hmph… well. It’s clear you need to get this out of the way before
you’ll see the bigger picture.”
“What-” Darkmark began,
insulted, but he was cut off.
“They are the past. It is
your responsibility now to protect the future. To ensure
survival. To make sure that your children and their
children have a chance to live. If you don’t, then they will not. It is
that simple.”
“Is it so wrong to want what
I do?” Darkmark cried. “I have lost everything… everything at the hands of
the humans! I want it back! I want to love again! I want to have a body that
isn’t scarred with curses! I want things to be peaceful,
I want them to be as they used to be…”
“That time is gone now.” Karlo-Shin said coldly. “Forever.”
“…then at least
let me say goodbye to it.”
“If it will clear your mind,
then I will use my remaining strength for now to send you on your way. But I
promise you… you will be headed back on your mission before this day is done.”
Before Darkmark could protest
or ask anything else, his vision whited out, and he
found himself lying somewhere in the snow on a mountain. He felt cold, not just
from the snow, and shivered, taking several moments just to get back to his
feet.
Upon looking upwards, he
found himself in front of a tunnel in the rock… a faint light at the end of it
enticing him to come forwards.
Another one of my journies ends today, he mused, and
another one looks like it will begin…
To be continued…